Conference weekend was amazing. Can you say V-A-C-A-T-I-O-N? Crazy to think that a year ago I was in Salt Lake, set apart, anticipating going to the MTC. That feels like it was just yesterday. I know I probably always talk about how fast time is going, but it's so crazy.
There is a saying here in Jamaica that I absolutely love. It doesn't make much sense, grammatically, but it sounds nice, "Let go, and let God." So that is what I have been doing. I am letting go of self doubts, worries, and just letting God do His thing. I can't control people, everyone has agency, so I will at least control how I look at each situation. I can control my learning, my thoughts, my actions. I know as a missionary I am not supposed to be selfish, but each of us have a huge responsibility for our own eternal progression. Nobody will get us a free ticket into heaven. We determine our destiny, individually. I am just doing my best to be a mouthpiece for the Lord. I am not the teacher, the spirit is. I am not here to convince anyone, the spirit will do that. I am simply a vessel. If I am worthy and obedient, the spirit will manifest itself to our investigators.
This last week I had an amazing spiritual experience while teaching the restoration of the gospel to two young people. One is Shakarah, and the others name is Collito. They are both amazingly intelligent. I love them so much. Anyways, while we were teaching, they just understood everything. It all made sense to them. The highlight of the lesson was when we talked about modern day prophets, and the Book of Mormon. Shakarah was so excited that we have a prophet on the earth today. She wanted to know everything about him and the kind of things he teaches, we told her about conference. Collito was especially impressed by the Book of Mormon. When we had him read the introduction, he said with a smile on his face, "That makes so much sense. Of course God would do something like this. Of course he would have another testimony of Christ, so that on judgement day nobody can say that they didn't hear about him." When he said that, I started to cry. It was really embarrassing... I just was so happy that he understood. Nobody understands. Nobody actually cares, and finally someone comes along and it just makes so much sense to him. I really hope and pray that he reads and prays about this. It might make sense to him, but if he doesn't ask God if it's true, he will never know for himself.
After the lesson Shakarah and Collito (who both attend the anglican church), said to us, "You know, we go to our church and we don't really learn anything, but when you guys come we can't stop thinking about the lesson." Wow. That was awesome. We committed them to baptism. They said if God told them to do it they would. I know God will tell them to do that, if they are sincerely seeking truth.
There were many talks that touched my heart this conference. I especially loved Elder Eyrings talk this year. It made me really want to develop a legacy of hope and faith. I don't need to make a big mark on the world, I don't need money or fame, I just want people to remember me by my faithfulness and my diligence in following after my Savior.
I also loved Elder Hollands talk, and Elder Utchdorf, and Elder Steveson, ALL OF THEM. They were all so good. If you didn't watch them all, go back and watch them! It will fill you spiritually.
Here are some statements made that really stood out to me:
"In His plan there are no true endings, only everlasting beginnings."
"Wrong is never right."
"I would have never asked for this trial, but I would never ask for it to be taken away."
"You can become like God, if you follow Him." (Notice how conditional that statement is).
"Do you sense the urgency?"
"There may not be second chances to be kind."
I feel spiritually filled and happy. All is well.
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